I Am Groot

I once wrote a blog post for my other page talking about one of my favorite heroes, Groot. There is so much that I can relate to about him. While he may only have 3 words he is able to say, "I am Groot," is very much how I am able to say "I am…

And Open Letter to My Loves…

To the amazing people who have been beside me since Day 1... I don't know what I have done to deserve you, but you have been there since the beginning when the anxiety started over a large, hard, and painful mass next to my right breast.  You sat beside me and held me while I…

On a Scale of 1 to 10

It is true, cancer sucks and we are often asked to rate our pain on a "scale of 1 to 10". But we are never asked how we are feeling otherwise. There is so much that Cancer brings that is horrible and difficult to deal with; but Cancer also brings some blessings with it. We just have to look for them.

At Night I Wander

For a while now I've been struggling with what to say next. Every night I wander in search of inspiration, and rest for my weary mind. Lately, my mind has been too jumbled to do anything but wander in hopes of it finding some peace. I starting this "habit" long before my diagnosis. But since…

The Tale of Starwhale

For thousands of years, Starwhales have roamed the known universe in a quiet peace.  They are a peaceful and gentle race that has all but recently become extinct.  We, as humans, have never been able to capture an image of one because of their preference and love of deep outer space.  From what we have gathered,…

Taxol Rides The TARDIS

This Wednesday I wore my Dr. Who "TARDIS" hat.  After looking at my selfie of me sitting in my chair getting my "Pre-Taxol Coctail", I was inspired to do some creative writing.  I know there is A LOT of fanfiction out there, and while mine may be a little different.  I thought I would give…

Please help bring my StarWhale back

My beautiful StarWhale. She has driven me through snow, sleet, mountains, dust storms, and rain.  She surpassed many people's opinion that she wouldn't get hubby and I out of Michigan; she got us all the way through to Springfield, Oregon.  She is my main source of transportation; not only is it easier but also a…

Taxol: 2 Me: 1

Days since Highest Weight:  149 Highest Weight:  464 lbs. Days since Diagnosis:  118 Current Weight:  394 lbs. Total Weight loss:  70 lbs. This past Wednesday I had my third round of my new chemotherapy drug treatment, Taxol.  Round 3 of 12.  Just before I started my first dose, my doctor was explaining that I would…

Last Dance of the “Red Devil”

Days since start of "Journey": 103 Days since "official" diagnosis: 59 Weight at start of "Journey": 464 lbs Current weight: 402 lbs Total weight loss: 62 lbs Treatments completed: 4 (dual chemotherapy drugs including Cyclophosphamide IV, Doxorubicin IV or "Red Devil", and Neulasta) Treatments remaining: 12 of Paclitaxel IV (Taxol) once a week for 12 weeks…